Over Lunch
HAZEL
(eats lunch)
Sa totoo lang, ayoko
pang umalis. Sobrang dami ko pang kailangang gawin dito. Parang
nakakapanghinayang naman, ‘di ba?
CARTER
(looks at hazel while
eating)
Sino ba nagsabing
kailangan mo nang umalis? Extend na yan! (laughs)
(speaks to self)
May sasabihin pa ko sa’yo. ‘wag ka munang umalis. Please.
HAZEL
Sorry na. Kailangan
na talaga eh. May work pa ko. Tambak na siguro yun ngayon. (laughs)
CARTER
(stays silent while
still eating)
HAZEL
(raises one eyebrow
at Carter)
Oh, ba’t natahimik ka
d’yan? Kalma, tol. Parang naman ‘di na tayo magkakausap ulit. Ito naman.
CARTER
(looks Hazel in the
eye)
It’s just that. Why
do you have to leave so soon? Can’t you just stay for a few more days?
(drops spoon and fork
on the plate then face palms)
Ayan, nawalan na ko
ng ganang kumain.
(speaks to self)
Wag ka muna kasing umalis. Mahal kita, okay? ‘di mo nga lang alam.
Ganun ba talaga ko katorpe?
(laughs)
HAZEL
(looks at Carter)
Oh, ba’t ka natatawa
d’yan? Nababaliw ka na noh?
(laughs)
Oh, tara na dali. I
have to meet someone at 5pm pa sa SM.
CARTER
(speaks to self)
Ano na, Carter? Papalampasin mo na naman ba ‘to? 6 years na kayong
magkaibigan. Shut up ka na naman ba? Bahala ka. Pag ‘di ka na umamin ngayon,
who knows after ilang years na naman bago ka makakuha ng moment na ‘to? Ilaban
mo na! ‘wag ka nang duwag! Ano ba?
HAZEL
(reaches for Carter’s
arm)
Bes, tara na! Dali
na. Baka malate pa ko.
CARTER
(looks at Hazel’s
hand holding his arm)
Okay.
(speaks to self)
Next time na lang siguro.
(stands up from the
chair)
(speaks to Hazel)
Hey, Hazel. I lov… It
was nice seeing you again. I really had a great time. (smiles)
HAZEL
(looks at Carter)
Yeah, me too.
(smiles) So uhm, yeah. Good bye then. Mauna na ko. Salamat ulit!
CARTER
(suddenly reaches for
Hazel’s arm as she leaves)
Wait. I, uhm, please.
Please stay. Don’t go yet. I don’t want you to go yet.
HAZEL
(smiles at Carter)
Clingy mo bes ha?
(laughs) I’m sorry. I really have to go. I’ll see you again soon, okay? Uuwi pa
rin naman ako dito sa’tin. Ano ba? ‘di ko naman kakayanin na puro snow na lang
ang tititigan ko every year.
CARTER
(hugs Hazel)
Well, I can’t force
you to do anything. Matigas pa naman ulo mo. (laughs) Take care of yourself for
me, okay?
HAZEL
I will. See you when
I see you. Love you! I have to go. Bye! (smiles and waves as she leaves)
CARTER
(looks down at shoes)
I just wish you didn’t
have to, because I love you more.
Note: This is not
my saddest experience ever. I’m sorry. I just feel as if it’s too much for me
to publicly bare my weaknesses. To be honest, when I first heard about the
topic for this blog post, I fell silent. It’s been two weeks now since I
started thinking about what to write, and the experience above is the most
recent one. I’ve experienced a lot of emotional situations for the past 17
years of my life and I honestly do not feel comfortable sharing it publicly.
Thinking about this post included sleepless nights, more than a bucket of tears
(seriously), and a lot of food (because food makes me happy). It’s just that
having those memories come flooding back— It hurts. I feel like the wounds that
have already become scars are opening up again, and it’s painful. But if you
really want to find out, prangka naman po ako. Just ask me about it. I can open
up. It just has to be at the right place and at the right time. Sorry, miss.
All the love!
Fei
P.S. Not really my best work. It's okay though. (:
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